I wake. I weep. My blackbird alarm clock chirps all the louder, only adding to this hell.
I dress. I fall. The belt I wrap twice about me fails to secure. Will I ever learn!
I eat. I drink. The race to the toilet is a mismatch, and I’m the loser.
I dress… partly. For once, I use my head and don’t bother with pants. Take that fate! Yeah, take that.
I mow. I rake. Several women and a few giggling schoolgirls shout or point or scream or jeer.
I work. I slave. There’s always a distraction, but never a distraction enough.
I avoid. I blur. My beat-up Volvo hovers on the periphery, catching the light in concave shadows and rusting browns.
I vacate. I climb. The shower beckons a sweat-stealing pleasure. But I don’t deserve pleasure, so head to my room, instead.
I undress. I collapse. My eyes close like shutters this evening, midnight filling the void.
I dream. I scream. They are here, as always, unblemished by blood or glass or broken bones, or my drunken incompetence.
I hope. I pray. Perhaps this time that blackbird named Death will let me die in peace.
Chirrup! Chirrup! No release today.
Thank you for reading
Richard M. Ankers
Author of the brand new steampunk extravaganza Britannia Unleashed.